I really thought the scale would be kind to me today. I didn't have one piece of candy yesterday. Surely I should have dropped at least 3 pounds! But, no - I stayed exactly the same, right down to a 10th of a pound on my digital scale. Ugh! That's okay. I am still in control. Last night, I made my sister's recipe for lentil soup. It's high in protein and fiber, tastes great and is easy to make. The lentils are already steamed from Trader Joes. I added sauteed onions, mushrooms, spinach and hearty vegetable broth. I thought for sure a couple of bowls of that steamy hot goodness would surely make me as skinny as she is. I was wrong. :(
Patti's plate has had some pretty healthy choices on it this past week. I have also been very mindful of my portion control. I attribute my discipline to a "calmness" that I haven't had in a long, long time. When my mind and emotions are going in so many different directions, it is difficult to keep anything in balance, especially my appetite. When I hunger for answers, loyalty, security, happiness, etc., I feed that hunger with food. This last week that hunger has not been as ravenous as it's been in the past. I am not sure why, but I am pretty confident that I will figure it out. So, has the scale reflected my efforts of the last week? Well.... very slightly. However, I do have a small confession to make. I still have leftover Halloween candy! I will be getting it out of the house today.
There is something so comforting about chicken soup. I am just getting over a cold, and this is the second pot of soup I have made for myself this week. It is hot, filling, nutritious and delicious. Not only does it reduce my appetite, but it is a small step I've taken in caring for myself. I have been the sole attendant in a bit of a pity party I threw for myself this last year and I am slowly attempting to "call it a night."
So.... my new favorite beverage is hot lemon water. It may not be great for my teeth, but it is a natural diuretic, full of vitamin C, and has a fresh healthy taste that helps me start my day on a positive note! I still drink my coffee, but not as much as before because I switch to the lemon water. It's filling, makes me less hungry and will help me accomplish what I set out to do over 3 years ago. - LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!
It has been so long since I last wrote. So much has happened in the last few months. I have attempted to start writing again many times, but because there seems to be so much to catch up on, I keep putting it off.....and then get further behind. Well, today is going to be different. Yesterday morning, my life long friend, Debbie, came to visit me. We spent a couple of hours catching up and sharing stories. She inspired me to just take pen in hand, and start writing. So, forgive me if I ramble or don't make sense. Eventually, I hope to get back in my stride. Today is November 7, 2011. Patti has had a lot on her plate lately......and not just food. Thanks, Deb, for being a true friend. (Even during those times when I didn't deserve it)